Happy New Year!
I’m actually shocked that I haven’t posted anything for the past 2 weeks!
I guess I wanted to take a proper break over the holiday period. Although I didn’t actually relax (Christmas Eve was horrible…), I think it was a good decision to not stress over how many posts I will be able to write. Unlike the past two years, when I shared my ups and downs for the year, this time I decided to take a different approach. The past year has been very emotional for me and I didn’t want to write about it as that would mean only focusing on downs. Instead, I’ve decided that I’m going to share my personal goals that I want to achieve in 2020!
Have A Positive Mindset
On 31st December my bff called me really early in the morning with the words: ‘From tomorrow, I want us to wake up with a completely different mindset. No matter what happens with us or around us, we need to change for the better! Are you listening?’. Honestly, I felt like I was in the military… Obviously, I have no idea what it is like to be in the military, but I can imagine that it is something like that. Waking you up early in the early morning with stern demands! When she actually told me that, something in me snapped but in a good way. It was like realization finally hit me and I knew she was right. I couldn’t keep living like this… My mindset really needs to change and that is one of my goals for 2020. So far, I’ve cried myself to sleep pretty much every single night but I’m waking up with a far better mood compared to before. I just hope it gets better and better from here!
This is as important to me as having a positive mindset! I’ve never truly practised self-love because I’ve never really loved myself. I think back to days that I thought I was doing things for myself – having a cheat day, read a book, go shopping, etc. Yet, that’s not self-love… I had it all wrong all this time… I had this ridiculous belief that if I do the things I like on my own and treating myself, that I’m practising self-love. But that is so wrong. Self-love is not about the things you and buy for yourself. Self-love is all about accepting who you are as a human being. Accepting that you have flaws and every person has flaws. Yet, not only me but most people are so harsh on themselves. In 2020, I want to practice the true meaning of self-love – be kinder to myself, not let people use me, remind myself that I have many good qualities, celebrate my body in all its monthly transformations (I go two sizes up when it’s that time of the month…).
Be More Impulsive
Anxiety is a bitch… Seriously, it is the worst bitch that you’ll have to deal with in your life. It prevents you from doing so many great things and embrace life. I can tell you not one or two stories on how I’ve let anxiety ruin my life. I’ve always been anxious – I’ve spent my life overthinking and worrying about the silliest things: ‘how am I going to find the new supermarket, will I get lost, what if they don’t have the chocolate I want, what if it rains, what if the self-checkout till is closed and I’ll have to make small talk with a real person, what if they don’t say ‘have a nice day’ back at me, would that mean they hate me?’. Eventually, though, I would go to the supermarket and feel all empowered that I managed to do it. Last year, however, I preferred to starve rather than go shopping – it was that bad! One of my biggest goals for 2020 is to face this bitch, named anxiety, and tell her who the boss is. To do that, I’ll have to be more impulsive and not constantly plan and overthink things. So far, it’s going pretty well – I actually offered someone to have a glass of wine with me and meet me in 15min at the bar! I didn’t even care that I had no makeup on!
I want to achieve a lot of other personal goals in 2020 but I think these 3 are perhaps the most important for me. Also, if I set myself too many goals, I will end up even more disappointed if I can’t manage to achieve at least half of them.
What are your goals for 2020?
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